boyfren

i miss my boyfren...
i really really miss him...

i miss to drive him around...
i miss his smell...
i miss to sit behind his wheels...


yup... my boyfren is my Waja... A*N 1**1... i first drove him when i was 17... adelah curik2 bwk ok... hakhakhak... i called him boyfren sbb dia sgt macho n i feel totally safe with him... btol2 spt sorg boyfriend... suke i... hikhikhik... well of coz la aku pggl dia boyfren syp2 kan... takkan nk btau ayahanda aku plak... kang dia takut nk ngaku aku ni anak dia plak kan... hakhakhak...

after my dad bought himself a SUV as his new gurlfren, rsnya dlm thn 2006-2007, aku pun mula la memujuk2 ayahandaku agar mengizinkanku memandu boyfren... that time i was driving Afiq, my kancil A*Q 3**2... my sis doesnt like driving boyfren so dia nak drive Afiq... aku pn bg la ayat tu kat ayahanda lalu dia pn stuju bg aku bwk boyfren... hakhakhak... saat yg dinanti2 telah tiba... rsnye mcm bulan jth ke riba... hakhakhak...

since then i've been everywhere with him... he witnessed almost every big things happened in my life... and most important thing is he knew all the guys i've dated... hakhakhak...

he's the boyfriend who will never leave me... he's there for me when i'm down, when i cried all my heart out... he listens to my voice when i sing despite how horrible i might sound... he holds the biggest secret of my life... n on top of all, he's everythg to me... he means the whole world to me...

ok... now i want to announce that i change my mind... i won't let him go... i'll hold on to him till death torn us apart...



~currently boyren is in the workshop... ni dah msk hari ke-5 since the last tym i was with him... adelah sgt rindu ok!! dah thp parah dah ni... huhuhuhu.....

if you ever being dumped by your friend, read this

sometimes... you never know the actions you did have hurt other ppl...

sometimes... you never realise the words you said have hurt other ppl...

when they got hurt... they go away from you... they hate you...

you wonder why they go... why they become suddenly cold to you...

you wonder what went wrong... you wonder what did you do...

it hurts...

it hurts a lot...

you miss those times when you were together... the laughter, the smile, the warmth of the friendship... all that have been a basic support for you to live another day everyday...

but now... it is suddenly gone...

in a blink of an eye...

you try to apologise... but you're no longer forgiven...

you try to please them... but you're just being ignored...

you feel regret... you feel like a loser... you feel terribly lonely...

they tried to tell you what did you do... but you cannot recall the things you have said and done... or perhaps you're in the state of denial...

or worse, they never tell you what went wrong... they just remain silent and cold... it hurts deeper that way...

and now, all you can do is just look at them... watching how happy they are without you around...

you try to move on... pretend like nothing had happened... try to be strong... you to try to make new friends... perhaps you succeed... but the new friends are not the same... and it makes you suddenly feel lonelier than before...

all you can do now is just cry...

~we always feel regret after the lost... while we still having it, we never treasure it... we always take it for granted... until it goes away from us... and when we have realised our mistakes... it all will be too late to correct it.....

Tabung NSTP Untuk Gaza

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Mereka yang ingin menghulurkan sumbangan boleh menyalurkannya ke:

Bahagian Kewangan NSTP, 31 Jalan Riong, 59100 Kuala Lumpur.

atau

akaun Maybank 514105-320501 atas nama ‘Tabung NSTP Untuk Gaza’.






~this is another fund to help ppl in Gaza... perhaps, this is the least we can do to help them... but still, it's better than nothing...

Palestine Relief Fund

Palestine Relief Fund

MERCY Malaysia appeals to the public to donate to the PALESTINE RELIEF FUNDMERCY Malaysia has initiated an emergency response assessment team on the 30th December 2008 to Egypt in response to the humanitarian crisis resulting from the Israeli attacks on the Gaza Strip, which has killed more than 300 people and wounded more than 1,500 people.

The team, aimed at conducting a rapid assessment of the humanitarian needs, will be led by MERCY Malaysia President Datuk Dr. Jemilah Mahmood and EXCO Member Norazam Ab Samah.

We appeal to concerned Malaysians to send in cash donations.

MERCY Malaysia's basis of assistance to the beneficiaries relies on the support and generosity of individuals such as you to contribute to the PALESTINE RELIEF FUND.It will support our efforts to procure emergency surgical kits, additional medicine and hospital equipment which will be channeled to the affected communities in Gaza.

PALESTINE RELIEF FUND

Cheque payable to MERCY MALAYSIA
CIMB Account No : 1424-000-6561053

OR

Cheque payable to MERCY HUMANITARIAN FUND
MAYBANK Account No : 5621 7950 4126

You can also download our donation form. Download Donation Form
For more information please contact 03-2273 3999 or email us at info@mercy.org.my.




~i'm really upset and angry on the fightings in Gaza... i can't talk about it cos i will get very emotional... if i post a blog here, it will be pages... if i discuss about it, i feel angry... if i read the news, i feel like picking up the weapons and join the fight with the palestinians... if i look at the pix, i feel like crying... sgt emo ok!! since we can't join the fight, let's donate watever we have so that we can save the survivors of the attacks... let's give them a chance to breath for another day...

saturday, jan 10 2009

*bru lps blk lunch... dgn perut yg kekenyangan dan mata separa terbuka... memaksa diri meneruskan perjuangan berbakti utk TM...

tetiba receive 1 MMS:

ila_anorrin:

Nah,muke aku.so ko xkan rindu.

AdASyuT:

Nah baked pasta aku..bia ko t'liur slalu..hakhakhak

cari benda tersembunyi

mari mencari benda2 tersembunyi dlm 2 gmbr di bwh:

• garfu
• brownies cheese
• gelas yg dah mnm tp tak bsh lg
• diari juliet
• tin kacang siam yg tak buang2 lg sbb syg
• pastic kek secret recipe
• botol mnm yg airnye bwk dr umah
• headphone
• pendrive
• surat cust
• gelas yg mcd bg free sempena olimpik 08 dan gelas tersebut adelah kepunyaan fakrul
  
• tisu yg diambil dr cafe
• kotak tisu yg tisunye org lain pakai lg byk dr tuannya
  
• antibiotic yg berjaya mkn 5 bijik je drpd 10 bijik smpi ke hr ni
  
• ubat dr klinik tgkt 26
• gelang yg aku tanggal sementara sebok menaip
  

sape dpt jwpn yg btol... akan dpt adiah:

ciuman kasih syg dr AdASyuT...

hakhakhak...

~meja kerja seseorg adelah melambangkan kepala seseorg... ye... ketika ini kepala sy tgh berserabut ya amat... hmm... (-_-")

thoughtful gifts...sukeeee (^_^)

aku adelah sgt terharu...


aku ade 2 org mmbr baik yg sdg futher studies kat overseas yg sdg bercuti di mesia... sorg stadi kat jepun; alang dan sorg lg stadi kat aussie; alel...

2-2 aku knl since skool...

alang adelah BFF since kami sama2 1 dorm dlu ms f5... since then, she's been one of my emotional supporter... she's a great girl but she always refuse to believe it... that's why i don't tell her how great she is and how such a greater person she can be one day...

how i befriended with alel is a funny story... i knew her since skool but we were nvr close... we started to become besfren since we were studying for degree in the same uni in s.a... before that she was studying for dip in penang while i was in s.a... she's one of the excellent student in the fac but she nvr a snobbish... she always help her frens whether in studies or in life... that touches me so much... i think that's how we started became close despite on how different we are as persons...

i met alel earlier tonite... and my sis was shocked knowing i was meeting her... coz we had a history of the same man in our lives... she thought i was thru' with her... but how can i ditch a fren over a man? i treasure the frenship i had with her more than just the feelings i had for the man...

and that man was also my fren...


and he still is... (^_^)


i'm touched for they are very thoughtful...

alang gave me a yukata for my bday gift (and i was like, haa? yukata? ape tu?? yutaka takenouchi aku knl laa... hakhakhak):

i have to google on what yukata really is and how to actually wear it... hakhakhak... alang, next tym pls pronounce it as kimono or anythg easier to my understanding ok!!

alel gave me an aussie t-shirt:

let's take a closer look:

the brand label:

alel also gave me a pair of key-chains (eh, keychain ke... ntah la... aku pn tatau nama sbnr dia ape... janji aku tau function dia ape... hakhakhak):

sgt terharu sy...

(^_^)



~to alang: i'm gonna miss you again sooooo much... i'm sorry for keep calling u even for a stupid reason, eh actually kan... for no reason at all!! i just want to hear ur voice... (-_-")
~to alel: u OWE me a story ok!!!

a visit

date: 3 jan 09
venue: no**, jln cincin 11/6, sek11, s.a



got a visit from my skool frens... adelah sgt excited ok... requested menu adelah the main meal of the nite, which is of coz, baked pasta with cheese... hakhakhak... menu sampingan adelah mushroom soup with bread and chicken nuggets...

aku adelah excited sbb alang yg blk mesia utk bercuti adelah sudi dtg ke umahku... terharu gue... huhuhuh... and she brought smthg from japan as a bday gift... will be updated in the next post (^_^)

umah aku mlm tu adelah sgt riuh... dah thp leh tepon 999 wat repot gangguan bunyi oleh jiran... hakhakhak... seb baik jiran2 di seblh kiri dan kananku ketika itu tiada di umah... tak slp aku jiran blh kiri org2 bjg... jdnye sure derang tak kesah... n jiran blh kanan lak sure leh phmnye... sbb derang pn slalu jemput kwn2 n family dtg umah n derang adelah sgt meriah ble wat event... umah aku je yg sgt plek bile meriah sbb slalunya mmg tak meriah... haihh...

tp mlm tu mmg best... bile jupe mmbr skool, mmg akan terbukak byk cite2 hangat tym skool dlu... in fact, dah tgglkan skool for almost 9 years now tp still byk lg cite2 dulu kala yg baru terungkap that nite dan aku tau mmg still ade lg yg tak terungkai... tgu la next gathering... akan kuar gak sume... tak leh nak soroknyeee.... hikhikhik...




~to alang, angah, abgngah, ajer n cah+bf... tq all for coming... (^_^)

current dilemma

changes...

i hate changes actually... i always love things go smoothly as planned and life goes just the way i love it... yup, fairy tale boleh la kan...

i have to make major decisions this year... ada yg aku mmg dah lama plan... and ada gak yg aku tak penah plan lgsg, tp terpaksa gak plan and try to proceed with the plan the best i can...

i doubt myself whether i'm ready for it yet or not... but it seems like i have no other choice... i better do it now or else, it's gonna be too late...

there are so many things to do, but so little time given...

can i do it?




~dilema someone yg baru realise she's turning 26 by the end of this year... duuhh (-_-")

weddings

last nov 08 and dec 08 ade byk weddings... sgt sronok sbnrnye sbb cam kawen secara berjemaah... cam penyakit yg contageous... sorg stat wat kenduri, yg lain ramai lak yg follow... hakhakhak...

date: 22 nov 08

venue: taiping, perak

pengantin: salmiza (kak miza, the boss) & nik hasnizam

date: 29 nov 08

venue: temerloh, pahang

pengantin: alfiza (kak pija) & isyam (mok)

date: 30 nov 08

venue: putrajaya

pengantin: aida fazlina (kak aida) & psgn

date: 10 dec 08

venue: pasir putih, kelantan

pengantin: noraini (aini, my TL) & haffizu

(pic NA)

date: 13 dec 08

venue: taiping, perak

pengantin: kamisah (misah) & kapt. mohd jaslee

date: 20 dec 08

venue: lenggong, perak

pengantin: aida hafiza (aida) & (abg awie/widi)

date: 25 dec 08

venue: taman kajang utama, kajang, selangor

pengantin: nor liyana (along/nolly) & izam

the last wedding adelah wedding my along, big sis dlm e-club family ms skola dlu... aku tak penah jupe dia lg after wedding... tp yg aku dpt simpulkan adelah sume pengantin2 di atas lps kawen adelah wajah berseri2 dan bertambah cantik ok... kagum aku... huhuhuuh...

this year lak sape eh... tlg list down and announce tarikh secepat mungkin utk mengelakkan sebarang ketidakhadiran jemputan di wedding anda ok ('_^)

~congrats to all the brides and thank you for the invitations... wish you all to live happily ever after...

ila's farewell party...

date: 2 jan 09

venue: KFC, midvalley

~muka msg2 ceria je... tak sdey pun... farewell party ke nih... hikhikhikhik~

~mkn smpi perut penuh... i can see myself not eating KFC again for the next two months...~

then we went for a bowling game... since i was not feeling angry to anyone, i was sucks in the game... yup, i guess i was rite... the tips to play a good bowling game is to feel angry... ahahahahahhaa... (-_-")

owh... dan jgn main bowling dgn perut yg penuh... makin lapar perut anda, permainan boling anda akan menjadi lebih bagus ok...

at the end of the day, benda yg kami pelajari adelah:

"penyekan lipas yang rangup"

ahakhakhakhak!!!

~we're gonna miss u ila...

this post is dedicated to all my friends (^_^)

these pictures were taken while i was eating with kak obie n her fren at 1901 at sunway pyramid...

~a true friend will respect who you are. they won't expect you to change or do things different just to please them.

~who are your best of friends? those who know your deepest, darkest secrets and have found your major flaws, but love you anyway.

20 perkara tentang diri aku

20 perkara tentang AdASyuT

1. i luv being a big sister... i can't imagine myself having a big bro or sister... i luv the power of being the oldest of the siblings... hakhakhak...
2. i can't live without my sis, nurul
3. masa aku kecik, dalam diam2 aku teringin nak jadi tentera darat... ataupun pembunuh upahan... hakhakhak...
4. i'm advanterous... aku suka pegi melancong ke tmpt yg menarik, bljr tentang budaya org2 kat tmpt tu...
5. i luv water activities... aku sgt suke hidupan laut... for me, they are most beautiful creatures on planet...
6. i luv driving
7. i luv handsome, gud looking men... hakhakhak...
8. aku plg benci org yg make up stories just to show to the world that they are better than anyone else on planet
9. i luv my frens... they are part of me... who made me as me today...
10. aku tak suka org usik brg2 aku... even brg2 aku bersepah, aku akan tau brg2 aku letaknya kat mana...
11. aku tak pandai pujuk org merajuk... cara aku pujuk adelah dgn nyanyi lagu utk dia... ahahahaha (-_-")
12. aku suka wat smthg ikut mood... kalo aku wat secara paksaan, aku akan rs terkongkong... dan aku takkan rs ikhlas... dan aku akan mengamuk... ahaahahaha...
13. aku suka menyanyi
14. aku suka berangan aku ade sore mcm avril lavigne dan jd lead singer dlm satu rock band... hakhakhak...
15. i luv reading
16. i'm good in writing
17. aku teringin nak bljr main drum... or piano...
18. bile aku rs down atau need to be alone, aku akan bli mcflurry oreo kat mcd pastu lepak dlm kete smbl dgr radio kat tepi tasik seksyen 2 shah alam... ahahahaha...
19. aku tak leh tgk cite (drama/filem) sdey... especially yg berkaitan psl family... nnt aku akan nangis beria2 tersedu2... ahahahaha
20. aku anak abah (^_^)

i wanna tag:

• en. stannero
• alang

this post is dedicated to ila_anorrin

ni kwn sy... namanya ila_anorrin... atau lbey dikenali sgb ila_bontot ayam... gmbr ni adelah gmbr yg sy set kat nama dia dlm phone book sy...

sy tak igt cane sy leh stat kwn ngan dia... yg sy igt cuma dia join mkn ngan sy n aida mun dila ayen... since then, sy pun kwn la ngan dia... camtu laa...

ila sorg yg byk ckp... dia ade baaaaaaaanyak cite dan suuuuuuuuke cite kat kami sume... sy sorg pendengar yg baik jdnye sy pun dgr suuuuume cite yg dia cite... cumanya dia tak tau (rsnya sume org pn tatau), aku adelah takkan igt sume cite yg diberitahu kat aku unless org tu cite smula kat aku... jdnye sesape nak cite rahsia kat aku, mmg akan terkubur dgn aku trs unless kalo dia cite smula kat aku... hakhakhakhak... a.k.a. lost short-term memory (-_-")

ila dpt KPLI... start bln Jan 09... kena daftar 12hb ni... dia ckp parents dia tak dpt anta dia, jdnye dia bg la hint kat sy tlg teman dia daftar... dia tak bgtau direct tp sy tau dia nak kwn2 dia anta dia... tp sy dah janji ngan Udin nak anta Udin daftar KPLI gak kat Perak... Udin pun dpt KPLI gak... subjek yg sama: bahasa inggeris... tetiba sy rs sdey... kalo la leh belah badan ni jd 2 dan leh berada di 2 tmpt yg sama, kan bes... hmmm....

ila kata last day dia kat opis ni adelah next monday... sy mst akan rindu dia bile dia takde... (T_T)

since the day sy dpt tau dia dpt KPLI, sy tak penah lg wish congrats kat dia... tatau nape... maybe tak terucap kut... tak terluah... nak feel happy for her pun tak leh sbb tak mampu nak selindung perasaan sndri... sbb sdey dia akan pegi tinggalkan opis nih... walopun tmpt bljr dia dkt je ngan opis ni, tp adelah tak sama ok... hmmm... i should be happy for her rite... it's for her own good, for her future... hmmm... ok la... sy happy (^_^) *smbl senyum terpaksa*

~to ila:

congratulations ila sbb dpt KPLI tu... wish u all the best dan wat la yg terbaik to achieve best results k... jgn mls2... aku tau kalo ko bosan ngadap buku2+assgnments, ko mst akan msg/call aku... takpe, aku tak kesah ko nak msg/call aku pkl bape pun, janji ko tak tensi k... cuma kalo tym tu aku dah tdo tetiba terjaga sbb msg/call ko tu, ko phm2 la bile aku tls cam terslp2 eja ke ape ke... atau aku ckp ayat aku tunggang-terbalik ke... aku tau ko dah jd cekgu, sure akan alert kat grammar aku nnt... aku tanak tanda pangkah, aku nak tanda rite je... aku nak dpt fullmark, nnt leh dpt byk bintang... hakhakhakhak...

insyaAllah, mjls ko nnt aku dtg k... nnt ko btau date nye, aku akan apply tkr shift/AL... nak tdo umah ko satu mlm... hehehehe...

syg ko... mmmuuaahh :-*