current mood: shrugging

lama dah tak update apa2 kat photobucket.. tadi tengok visitor stats pun sangat menyayat hati T____T

tahun ni tak ada special event yang boleh buat aku rasa eager dan excited untuk tangkap gambar.. kamera aku tu pun dah berhabuk dah tak cuci.. kesian dia..

atau mungkin sebab semangat yang dah hilang?? *shrug*

hmm nak ikut alang & ajer pergi aussie, tak mampu la pula.. berat hati betul last time bila bagi jawapan NO pada diorang.. terharu tau diorang ingat kat aku ajak join diorang pergi sekali.. hmmmm....

maybe next time..

will it be next time? *shrug again*

currently hidup aku terasa mendatar je.. tiada spike.. cuma semalam aku telah melangkah satu step forward in my personal life.. hehh..

tapi tu je la pun.. yang lain tak ada apa2 yang menarik..

kesimpulannya, hidup aku kini rasa seperti garis lurus yang tak ada perhetian yang menarik untuk disinggahi..

bosan.

hmmm... *another shrug*

Fiesta Durian di Muzium Telekom

anda peminat durian? Muzium Telekom sedang mengadakan Fiesta Durian selama tiga hari.. bermula dari semalam,  27 julai 2010 hingga esok, 29 julai 2010.. klik sini..

aku baru pergi petang tadi.. lepas habis meeting kat kelana jaya terus drive ke sana.. nasib baik meeting habis awal jadi jalan sangat clear! tapi terpaksa tunggu dila dan mun stuck dalam jam dari ofis.. selesai baca 2 magazine tak berfaedah yang entah keluaran tahun bila (sengaja pilih magazine macam tu sebab tak nak bagi otak bekerja.. actually bukan baca pun tapi lebih kepada selak2 tengok gambar wanita dan lelaki indah :D ), diorang still tak datang sebab dila terlepas simpang dan tak tau nak u-turn kat mana.. so aku sebat la dulu sebiji.. sangat sedap okehh!!

bayar RM15 per entry lalu anda boleh makan sampai muntah! menarik kan? :P

ni je gambar yang sempat aku ambil.. sebab lepas tu tangan aku dua2 belah dah comot.. hehe..

owh ye, selain durian, ada juga rambutan dan manggis yang sedap yang termasuk dalam seleksi buah2 free.. memang terbaik la!! *luvluv*

isi durian tu sangat tebal walaupun bijinya agak besar.. warna kuningnya sangat mahal (if you know what i mean).. gambar tu since capture just using camera phone tak boleh nak describe betapa cantiknya warna ulas durian tu..

kalau nak tau, please check it out k.. esok hari last tau so make sure you're there tomorrow!!

happy fruit season all...

^_________^

jangan mengeluh.. marilah bersyukur

petikan ini ditujukan khas untuk aku...

dan juga orang2 yang macam aku :P


"Ada sahaja yang kurang bagi kita. Ada sahaja yang kita hendak rungutkan. Tidak pernah cukup dengan apa yang kita ada. Lumrah manusia, merungut dah tidak berpuas hati dengan apa yang diperolehi. Tetapi mari kita sama-sama cuba fikirkan apa yang terjadi dan apa yang ada pada kita.

Kita merungut dengar bunyi bising hari-hari, memang geram, sakit hati. Itu sebenarnya menandakan kita masih lagi mampu mendengar. 

Kita merungut pakaian yang kita pakai sudah ketat, kecik, tidak muat. Tetapi tidakkah kita bersyukur, baju itu sudah tidak muat kerana kita sebenaranya cukup makan. Allah beri rezeki melimpah ruah.

Kita merungut untuk rumah yang kita kena bersihkan, mop lantai, lap tingkap, sapu rumah dan sebagainya hari-hari. Tetapi bersyukurlah kerana itu menandakan kita masih lagi mempunyai tempat tinggal untuk berlindung dari hujan dan panas.

Kita mengeluh otot-otot kita kejang, kita sakit-sakit badan buat kerja hari-hari. Tetapi, itu sebenarnya menandakan kita masih mempunyai kudrat untuk berkerja kuat mencari rezeki.

Kita merungut untuk kerenah anak-anak yang tidak menetu dirumah. Kadang-kadang kita rimas. Tetapi besyukurlah, sekurang-kurangnya mereka berada di rumah, bukan di jalanan berpeleseran.

Kita mengeluh kerana tempat letak kereta ke lif yang mungkin agak jauh. Tetapi sebenarnya kita perlu bersyukur kerana diberi nikmat masih mampu berjalan. 

Kita mengeluh untuk timbunan pinggan mangkuk, pakaian yang perlu dicuci. Tetapi, itu menandakan kita sebenarnya memiliki semua itu untuk digunakan. 

Untuk pagi-pagi yang selalu dikejutkan dengan jam loceng, kita merungut kemalasan. Tetapi itu menandakan kita sebenarnya diberi kesempatan untuk mengharungi hari sekali lagi."


insaf dowh.. terasa giler.. menusuk kalbu.. pedih.. *________*

the sorcerer's apprentice & Inception

wathced the sorcerer's apprentice last thursday.. memang best cerita ni.. thumbs up to nicholas cage sebab kelakar dalam serius.. nothing much to say but this is the trailer..



yang membuatkan cerita ni lagi best sebab soundtrack filem ni adalah my favourite song by my favourite band!!! secret from one republic..





setelah bersusah payah, akhirnya semalam dapat juga tengok cerita Inception.. memang terbaik la cerita ni.. macam mana manusia boleh masuk dalam mimpi orang lain to steal the idea and also to implant one.. dan part yang paling suka sekali is how they arrange to have their "kick" so that they can wake up from the dream simultaneously.. yup, everyone must wake up at the same time.. no one left behind.. menarik kan? *angkatkening*

my stress antidote - part II

keesokan harinya, aku & dila pergi OU tengok Inception.. best cerita ni! nanti aku post review in the next entry k..

show awal dah full so kitorang terpaksa juga beli tiket pukul 11.30pm.. dah la masing2 pun tak pernah lagi tengok late show kat OU ni.. so masing2 pun gamble jek.. hehe..

we spent the entire more or less 5 hours before the show shopping, bowling and eating and shopping some more.. memang kerjanya menghabiskan duit gaji yang tak sempat panas pun kat dalam bank tu.. hehe.. tapi puas hati la, memang berniat nak shopping kasut pun.. kesian kasut I dah nangis2 tak mau bekerja dah.. dah penat katanya.. hehe.. ;P

~spaghetti meatball nyumnyum~

~dila and her waffle double scoop ice-cream nyumnyum~

~my waffle single scoop ice-cream nyumnyum~

~hasil belian.. nampak tak banyak sebab kena kongsi plastic bag.. no plastic bag day.. hehe~

~i think this is the last shop yang tutup semalam :D ~

~ahli pasukan~

~sorry for the low quality of pictures.. guna hp je :)

my stress antidote - part I

weekend yang penuh dengan aktiviti eh eh kecuali hari ni.. hehe.. hari ni memang plan untuk spend kat rumah je.. tak mau pergi mana2.. :D

last friday, me and the girls keluar jalan2 konon nak tengok movie Inception.. ingat nak tengok kat OU tapi last minute tukar plan sebab nak pergi makan meatball kat IKEA sekali.. sekali Cineleisure movie full, ada pun show lewat sangat.. masing2 tak mau tengok midnight.. so kitorang pun makan2 and jalan2 je kat IKEA/IKANO..

lepas dah puas jalan2 kat kat IKEA & IKANO, kitorang pergi lepak kat Rasta pulak makan waffle dan minum2 dan lepak2 dan gelak2 walaupun masing2 pun dah mengantuk giless.. nasib baik lala baik hati nak drive kereta pergi-balik.. thanks lal! hehe..

~meatballs with french fries and berry sauce (i forgot what it is).. terbaik!!~

~this is mine, poached salmon (order sebab ada diskaun.. hehe.. sedap!)

~chicken wing~

~ain's; chicken with rice and coleslaw~

~kek daim.. sedap! rasa macam kek batik biskut mary.. hehe~

~waffle with ice cream~

~ahli pasukan~

to be continued....



~food therapy is absolutely effective but it'll make me fat!!! T_____T .. but the laughter shared with friends is the greatest cure! ^__________^

sabo jo laa...

seriously, i am already tired with traffic jam.. i am soo done with it.. penat sudahh.. i think a lot about applying to transfer to the other state.. the nearest would be shah alam la of cos.. or else, i prefer to go back to ipoh.. other states? well maybe that depends on with whom i'm going to marry.. hahhaa...

but since i just changed my job, i can't do so.. i have to bear this situation for the next at least 2 to 3 years.. and that also depend on my boss whether they want to approve my application or not.. hmmm...

for now, nak wat camno? sabo jo laa... :|

i miss you.. always...

nape laa time bos takde baru la semua isu nak dibangkitkan.. sebelum ni tak pun.. senyap sunyi jek.. hmmm...

i am positive.. i took it as a challenge.. but.......... will i survive? if only i can fast forward to 2nd aug.. :(

*****

opah, this is for you...


kadang2 time down risau resah macam ni la tiba2 teringat kat arwah opah.. i think she was the only person who i dare enough to let everything inside me out..

i used to have my sister who listens to my story.. but i guess, time changes everything.. and also everyone...

it makes me feel more lonely.. :(

i can't stop repeating in my heart "if only she's around".. it has been more than a decade since she left, but until now i keep feeling i still need her.. i'm not fully let her go yet i guess..

and i wonder.. would i ever will?

i still remember everything about her.. every each detail.. how she smell, how she spoke, how she ate, how she watched the tv.. how she spent most of her time in front of the house, at the door, watching vehicles went by on the road.. how she laughed, how she told stories about her life..

and what i miss most of all is, to hold her hand while i walk with her, to almost everywhere she went..

i used to hate it when other people would come and take her hand from me.. but i never protest.. i was a silent type anyway..

and i used to pretend to hate it when i have to hold her hand when she wanted to walk (her knees were weak that time).. but actually in my heart, i was happy like a blooming flower..

i did write about her.. few months after she died, i entered a writing competition at school.. my BM teacher, cikgu maznah, asked me to enter.. it has two versions; to write in BM or english.. i chose to write in BM..

i remember submitted it to her last minute.. i drafted the night before the submission day during prep.. then on the next day, cikgu maznah told me to type the essay with the computer in her room (together with other friends who also entered the competition)..

the idea came on the spot, like a waterfall.. there were so many changes i made on the spot, so it was totally different from the essay i had drafted..

i made it to the national and won the third prize..

and i never write again ever since.. well, except in the blog and my diary.. haha..

it's not like i never try.. i tried, but i don't know why, somehow i just stopped in the middle..

and never finish it...

i guess, the essay is the fullstop of my writing? hmm... *shrugged*


~i still hate the people who hurt my opah until today.. even if the whole world forgive them, but i won't..
~there was an old lady lives next 2 houses from my house, on the left.. i parked my car in front of her house this evening and saw her sitting on the swing.. she reminds me of my opah.. the same thing she would do; to sit in front of the house watching vehicles go by.. i tried to smile at her but i guess she didn't see me.. it was already dark anyway.......

if it kills me - jason mraz

this is my current addiction.. i am TOTALLY in love with this song.. it touches my heart deeply, i even cried.. a very beautiful song...



Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
And it would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby thats a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Cause you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours, on and
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still cant say it after all we've been through

And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Well how long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all
Baby there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through

And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
Tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said I would
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through

And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
It's a feeling inside that keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me



i know this song from the reality tv series; so you think you can dance (which season i don't remember).. it was jeanine and jason's dance routine.. it was a very passionate dance.. bravo to the choreographer (whoever you are, thank you ^____^)

badan dan badminton

semalam main badminton, memang tiba2 badan terimbas kembali sejarah silam.. dan automatically the muscle moved like it used to.. my body still remembers it.. the adrenaline is still the same..

how can i leave this game for such a long time i wonder.. last main badminton secara serius adalah 12 years ago..

tapi tu la, since dah lama tak bergerak untuk badminton, bahu cepat lenguh.. my legs still could move but my right arm and shoulder dah numb, tak boleh bergerak.. siot tol.. hehh...

maybe i should start playing this game again.. it makes me happy..

and to win the game, it makes me happier ^_______^

my hp memang kebal

this is my handphone (no, the round black thing is not it's accessory.. please note).. one of my greatest treasure.. dah dua tahun lebih guna.. dalam masa tu baru sekali hantar kedai sebab rosak.. nasib baik still under warranty masa tu..

sunday last week, aku telah membasuh hp ni dalam washing machine.. mungkin sebab dia dah dua tahun lebih hidup dengan aku dan sekali pun aku tak pernah mandikan dia, jadi dia telah menjadi agak berbau.. so aku masukkannya sekali dengan cadar dan sarung bantal dan tuala dalam washing machine.. tapi dah siap basuh, hp ku ini tak mahu hidup2.. asyik tidur je..

owh lupa nak cakap, sebelum aku hidupkan dia, aku jemur dia dulu bagi kering..

since dia tak mahu hidup, aku dengan sedihnya terpaksa pinjam hp kurang canggih adik aku punya.. sehinggalah hari kedua hp ku tidur, adik aku try kejutkan dia.. tapi dia cakap dia tak boleh bangun sebab bateri kong.. so aku pun charge..

dah full, dia pun hidup semula seperti biasa..

and we live happily ever after.

sekian.

have fun, kakak!

starting next monday, aku bakal ditinggalkan oleh puan bos yg dikasihi.. hukhukhuk sdeyyyyy T______T

i don't really like it when i have to work while my boss is on leave.. kalau dia on leave but still in malaysia i still can contact her if anything happen.. but what if she goes holiday overseas and refuse to do roaming??? damn.. i am soo scared..

the truth is, i'm nervous on how am i going to handle all the problems which will going to arise when she's on leave.. problem yang still ada sekarang pun aku still tercungap2 nak handle.. tu pun aku mesti akan confirm kan dengan dia dulu.. now that she's not around, i think i'm going to be lost.. hukhukhuk T_________T

aku tau dia pun nervous nak tinggalkan aku dengan segala perihal kerja tu.. cara dia tinggalkan amanat tu pun macam (i can see it on her face); she has to believe me even though she is not.. of course i understand why she would feel that way.. aku kerja dengan dia baru berapa bulan kan.. and then suddenly she has to leave me by myself.. i know dia sure kasihan kat aku terkontang-kanting.. and i'm pretty sure dia dah pesan kat semua orang minta tolong tengok2kan aku.. hahhahaha...

how can i figure it out? well................ thanks to my supernatural power to read other people's mind.. bahahhhaha

tadi pun masa nak salam dengan dia before i went home (i went to her father's dusun at semenyih after the badminton match), aku rasa cam nak peluk dia je.. rasa macam nak cakap kat dia, "kakak, balik la cepat.. jangan la pergi lama2.. i don't want to be left alone!!" bahahhaha -_-"

but to think back, i can't be selfish.. she deserves the holiday.. she has been working day and night, practically everyday.. she works hard to please her big boss, and also the other big bosses.. and they are all got various kind of kerenah.. dia seriously sangat penyabar dan tabah orangnya.. haihh..

well kakak, enjoy your holiday.. just go on and have fun and don't worry about anything here.. i'm going to be fine.. everything is going to be fine ^_____^  *crossing fingers*


~my department organised a badminton match this morning.. and my team won! yayy!!! <3<3<3

Billu Barber

i just watched this movie at VOD through Unifi.. unexpectedly it was a great movie and i love it soo much!!

i think i fell in love with the movie because it really shows Indian's lifestyle.. the lifestyle of the small village people.. how they praise the movie stars like God.. for them it would be something to be proud of to have, even the slightest relation with the movie stars.. you can get the brief review here and their official website..

i actually cried at the part when shah rukh khan told the audience the story of his childhood with billu.. the story really remind us to treasure our friendships, because we rarely find a person who is not blood-related to us, but willing to sacrifice so many things just because they believe in us, more than we believe in ourselves.. and of course gladly, the superstar is very humble and down to earth and he remembers who is actually behind his success..

it reminds me of a famous quote, "don't forget the people you meet on the way up, because you will meet them again on the way down".. or something like that.. hehe..

yup, true friendships will never die..

and sometimes, some people can just simply be the turning point in our lives.. :-)


~congrats Germany for winning the third!!! <3<3<3

FIFA 2010 - my story part 2

sooooooo............ klose is not playing tonight.. damn.

~miroslav klose~

i was praying for him to play tonight.. i know he's injured but i was hoping for a miracle.. i have missed him since his last game.. and to know he's only 1 goal away to beat ronaldo's FIFA record, has added the sadness.. T__________T

it's okay klose.. i'll cheer for you in the next world cup.. and of course your club bayern munchen.. love you always *hugskisses*

*****

 in my previous post, i wrote about my possessions related to FIFA this year remember? (read here).. well eerily somehow, both country has entered the final game.. and of course England is not the team who entered the final duhh, it's actually Spain (the sandals).. and the referee will be someone from England (the free shirt).. if Paul the Octopus's prediction is true, then it's an honor for me to wear the sandals.. bahahaha!!

currently Germany is leading 1-0.. thanks to muller.. come on guys! i want to see more goalsssss!!!! :-D

Hujan vs Bunkface Concert

i'm planning to attend this concert.. who wants to tag along? if you do then click here or here and also here to find out more..

to purchase the ticket, you can go here.. if you're going, tell me k.. hope to meet you there! *luvluv*

benci...